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Friday, December 28, 2007

it's been only about a week since i last blogged, but i've been told that Jocelyn has kinda disappeared b/c i'm no longer me, and i don't seem like me anymore.
turth be told, i don't know who i am anymore, and sometimes days just pass by in a blur.

i'm only in my first week of work, but somehow i feel like i'm not getting anywhere. now all i need is a good bottle of vodka, some good old-fashioned self pity, a walk in the rain and come Monday morning, i'll be fine. i'll be fine.

when friends turn plastic on you, sometimes you tell yourself that it's you, and the problem lies with you. but when it gets too tiring to think, sometimes you just give up altogether and raise the white flag.

i'm all outta tears. sometimes when i feel all i need is a good cry, i curl up and only hear the defeaning silence of the dead night. at first i thought i was exhausted, it passed. then the second instance, then the third, and now all i can say is i've been wrung out and hung dry.

i'll just be a Mattel doll.

1:01 am